Gobbledegook

yes i am a little talkative and frightfully forgetful, maybe sometimes annoying, a tad bit demanding(who am i trying to kid), but i sure don't force people to conform to my beliefs and my norms. i'd like to think that im someone who argues her way into people's senses to get them to see hr rational rather than someone who insists she's right and demands that everyone else agrees.  and i'd seriously hate to think that i AM the latter or even if anyone thinks i AM so. i mean, i'm pretty damn liberal. i've always loved opposing ideas and opinions (and arguing, i was in the debate club!). chocolate vs vanilla lovers, hannah montana fans vs the i cant rmbr her name the wizard of oz girl, lays vs ruffles! seriously, imagine if everyone had the same thoughts and views to everything. tht would suck donkey dick. we'll just go around nodding our heads off to whatever anyone says. RIGHT.

hmm. thoughts?

back to my other not- so- nice bits,  D's told me a couple of times how difficult it is living on your own, independently, doing your own chores and whatnots. and how I wouldnt survive. hah. to think I countered him every single time with a "EY DONT SIMPLY SAY HOR. I'M SUPER INDEPENDENT OK." and obv, i didnt have any back up to that. but i rrly rrly did think, deep deep down inside i could do it. i thought, when the time came tht i would stand up and actually act EIGHTEEN. but recently, i've been thinking, i am super not ready to be an independent-staying-on-her-own-18yearold. i forget the dishes, i dont switch off lights, i can't chop garlic WTF, and etc. (much worse etcs).  so yeah i know i am not the perfect roommate/housemate. butbutbutttttt, contary to popular belief, i am fucking trying k. nevertheless, 

i admit, i am still, embarrassed and disappointed in myself. (no excuses, sarah)

..and i haven't even started on how poorly im handling my workload and time.

ps: i have always been a confrontational person, but this. this is unchartered waters, and i am thinking of ways to go around it. i, however, am also disappointed with the fact that i wasn't confronted personally, but i guess, it was hard for the other party s'well. this post is not an apology, neither is it written in spite. hopefully, it'll clear *some* things up and direct a path for some well needed heart-to-heart. 

while we're at it, i am (not fond) of hypocritical drama queens who take people for granted. and i especially h....dislike myself being so possessive about stuff that isnt even mine! arg.arg.arg.

,sarah.