determination

while waiting for the train earlier... i realized why i'm not (that) easily pissed off this few days like for example, when i was stuck for three damn hours at the customs yesterday and while queuing up for the 950 (2 hours,yes really!).. i was super duper tired yes, but not angry or agitated or anything of that sort, just rather amused really, with people there pushing to get down the buses then running up the escalators, squeezing their way through the blue bas pekerja buses trying to tumpang a ride, inconsiderates trying to nonchalantly cut queues, the super shocked faces of people (esp the ang mohs, damn funny) i spot coming down the escalators seeing the massive "human-chain" queues, the bus conductors banging on the buses trying to get people to move closer to the back of the buses when we're already squashed like sardines in a can... bapak i tell you there isn't even enough breathing space (especially with my 159 cm), how to move closer unkleeee?!?!?! yeah so anyways i digress

the point is, i realized i think its because i am quite lonely these days. 

i spend so much time traveling everyday, even when im staying in spore, like close to two hours to and fro college, and most of the time alone,... 

i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really miss B, fareez, sherwan, and everyone from back home, nat, dennis, qiting and gang, marie, lynn.. the weekend i spent with B, f and sher (which i AM going to blog about soon) was so nice, so nostalgic, and spending the afternoon with nat and dennis today, similarly,.. not that i dont love the peeps in spore too, kyna darling, qing, amira, 43Bs, grace, pak and everyone, ginny! its just its a different electric feel :) and maybe thats why this blog came along too hmm. i just, i think i need someone to talk to and its so expensive to fucking call from spore, and. sigh!

i just miss home, and march's term break is going to suck until i leave for sunburst on the 20th i just know it with all the extra classes and touch rug tourneys, SLO responsibilities. i am tired all the time, i am sleepy, i have a lot of work, i miss a hell lot of people, i need to find my motivation and block test is in a WEEK! mhmm and i just realize my sentences are actually unnaturally long with too many commas, see omg haha. ok full stop. SP match tmr, i hope we defend this one championship 8)

...btw, my attention span sucks and calbee's pizza chips is dizzgusting. the seaweed one is definitely da best!

i will hang on and work harder, because everything will be worth it in the end. 

hey ho, let's go!